not allowed to cum!

So last night I took a big step in my training! I cut up five pairs of my underwear! I have to buy five pairs of panties to make up for them! One other thing... Im not allowed to cum until I buy them. I havent had time, so I am gonna buy them tommorw! I am gonna buy some boyshort style underwear.

Im Stressed Out!

SO I have realllyyyyyy been stressed out recently. I started a composition class online and I have to write to papers a week. On top of that I have been working 9-10 hour days. So I decided to make a routine!
Morning
Wake up 5:30
Shower
Moisturize

Work

Evening
Homework

GIRLY TIME

On another note.
I have my butt plug in! It also has a bullet! I love it ever o so much!
I just wish it was my masters cock instead!

My masters Humiliation!

So today I got on my masters blog because I looovvveeee reading his posts. Anyway I started reading his post http://delicatesubmission.blogspot.com/?zx=c6bde96fe0faf0fe , and It was about me! I started blushing because I couldn't believe my master would do that. What he wrote though is so true. I do love eating my cum because it is what I should do as a sissy! It is what all sissies should not because its feminine but because it is natural! I am still turned on by his humiliation. I am going to buy a butt plug for my master to abuse and humiliate me further with. More posts to come!

What Kind of Sissy Will I Be?

I want to be the kind of sissy that makes my Master happy!


One that dresses like a slut for him. A sissy that lets my master tell me what to wear and how to wear it. I want to be as slutty as I can be for my master.

I am masters slave. I do what he wants me to do. I do it how he wants me to do it.

I will never be outspoken. My master does my speaking for me! I am a submissive little slut. I am my masters slut and nothing else.


This is my place

What is a sissy?

These pictures come up if you google the word "sissy".  But what really describes a sissy and what is a sissy.  I think a sissy is not a girl or a boy. It is someone who wants to be a girl but never deserves to be one. The girl and a man are both their master and they must submit to both. They are feminine and must look overly feminine as in the pictures. They are not girls but sissies. They must know their place and how they should act and dress. They are always submissive and must obey their masters. They have no freedom only to obey their masters. They are girly as they can be and even more than that.

My master recently listed his favorite humiliations. There are some I would love to participate in!
My favorite humiliations would be to wear an anal plug under my clothes. This would turn me on so much and remind me of the sissy I am. I would walk around knowing my secret and it would be humiliating to me!
I would love it if my master would cum in my food it would make if ever so delicious! It is only right for a sissy to eat from a floor or dog dish that is where a sissy should always eat! I wish master would choose what clothes I should buy. He should also tell me what toys to buy. I am only a worthless sissy and should not be able to make those decisions. I would shave anything my master asks of me!
 I am my masters slave and I will do what he says. I am a sissy and nothing else,.

My Bubble Bath

So today my master gave me the task of taking a bubble bath. I was so excited. I hadn't had a bath since i was a little kid. It was a great idea! I was giddy like a little girl. Anyway I went to Kmart to look for bubble bath. When I got to the aisle there were so many choices! I didn't know what to do! I spent 10 minutes reading the labels. I finally decided on a lavender scent bubble bath. It smelt like the girl I want to be.



After getting the bubble bath. I was right next to the hair brushes. Every sissy should take care of their hair. I have neglected mine over the years so I decided to buy my own hair brush.


After selecting my hair brush I started thinking about how I have not been living up to my masters expectations. I needed to make up for this to make him happy. I decided to buy an outfit. I wanted to buy something to lounge around or sleep in. I found the cutest shorts and top! The top is a pink tank top with sequins on it. The bottom is a pink and purple zebra print shorts and they are gorgeous!





After paying for my purchases I headed back to my hotel. I filled the tub up with water and my bubble bath. Getting in the bath felt literally like heaven . O MY GOD it felt so good. I don't know why I hadn't done it earlier. I felt so girly and feminine taking a bath with a lavender scent. I bathed for about 30 minutes. After my bath I dried off everything except for my hair. I decided to blow dry my hair and brush it 100 times. It is so shiny and smooth now. I looovveee it! Next I applied my lotion and smelt so girly. It felt so good to have my skin moisturized.

I got dressed in my newly purchased clothes along with my panties and bra and everything felt so complete.
I cant wait for what my master assigns me next!!!!!!!!

A sissy figure!

I have always had trouble loosing weight. Now I have a goal though. I want to have a girlish figure! Right now I weigh 225 and I want to get down to 175 in three months. That is about 4 lbs a week. So I am looking more realistically at four months. I want to have a goal and something to look forward to when I reach my goal. Anyone have any ideas. I was thinking of having a weekly reward to for when I loose 4lbs a week. Like maybe buying a pair or panties or being able to cum. I am also looking for the best way to diet and exercise. Right now I do cardio as much as I can to try and get the pounds off.

Here is my ultimate goal.

Moving into a new place

I've moved to my place for the summer. That means a lot more privacy! I'm wearing my bra and panties as we speak! I wish I had more clothes. Tonight I bought the items off my list and I am pretty happy with my purchases. I am leaving on a business trip for the week, so I am looking foward to having some privacy every night.

My Shopping List

Tommorow I plan on getting my sissy hygiene products!

This is my List:
Shampoo
Conditoner
Body Wash
Luffa
Shaving Cream
razor
Face Wash
Body Lotion

Anything Else I can get?What are some good brands for a sissy?
I am going away on a business trip this week. So I will have a hotel room to myself every night. Any recommendations for sissy to have some fun?

My Masters List!

My master gave me a list of things to keep doing and I love it!

1.  Always pee sitting down. This is a firm one. I hope you have not been making exceptions. 

2.  Wear your bra when possible. 

3.  Work on figuring out women and make an effort to think as a woman would. 

4.  Exercise and eat right. 

5.  Consider purchasing feminine hygiene products. If you do, try some of them out. 

6.  Consider purchasing and reading women's fashion or advice magazines. 

7.  Watch girlish tv INSTEAD of what you usually watch. 

8.  Try not to masturbate. 

9.  Post frequently, but at least daily, on your blog. Use the extra topics I have been giving you or come up with your own. 

10.  Read about cross dressing and how to do it. 

11.  Remember your subservience, m dominance, and that ultimately, your position in this relationship is solely to please me. (And I am pleased by hard work to transform oneself). 


I will keep doing these tasks! This is a good list of sissies to follow!

Back with my Girlfriend

This weekend I am visiting my girlfriend back home. I was wondering if she noticed me doing anything different. She Did! I was peeing sitting down and she asked me why I was doing that. I didn't know what to say :/. I also asked if we could watch The Vow and she looked at me if I was sick. I will keep acting as girly as possible this weekend and try and see if my girlfriend will notice anything different!

Wearing My Bra In Public

Tonight I had to return the bra I purchased to buy one that fit. I disobeyed my master and only bought one bra that fit instead of two. I went to the store wearing my sports bra. I felt like everyone knew! I felt like a real sissy! I spent a good 30 minutes looking for a bra that would fit, but be cute at the same time. I finally settled on a 41C Playtex bra. It is polka dotted Black and White. I will post a picture soon. It is cute and fits me really good! When I walked up to the front to pay I felt like everyone was looking at me because I was carrying a bra. I got to the check out and two girls got behind me. All I was paying for was my bra and that was it. It felt so rewarding to have the courage to buy my bra! I'm so happy I finally crossed that threshold. I have millions of miles to go to be the girl I want to be, but that is why I have my master to command me along the way!

Wearing my first Bra!

Today my master gave me the task of wearing a bra for one hour.  All I can say is OMG! I loved every second of it. I wore my sports bra and I loved the feeling of it. I felt like I found a missing piece! It made me so happy and I'm glad my master gave the task to perform.  I even got adventurous and wore it out in public to get some food.  I felt like everyone was staring at me and could see me for the sissy I am.

On a different note I have been thinking about a list of what every sissy needs to begin down her path to becoming a sissy.
Here are a list of of the essentials.
Girly Shampoo and conditioner. Something that smells great and helps your hair be more girly.
Deodorant - Something with a feminine scent.
Lotion. - A kind of lotion that will moisturize your skin while making it smell great!
Lip balm. Something that will keep your lips moisturized.

These will just help in your feminine hygiene. What else does a sissy need?

My First Bra!

Tonight my master gave me my first task. He told me I had to go buy two bras. One was to be a sports bra. The other was to be a fitted bra. I decided to go to target. It was close to my location and I thought they would have a better selection than walmart. Im not going to lie, I was a nervous little sissy. I could not fail my master so I pushed on. I walked straight to the intimates and first selected my  sports bra.

I wanted to get pink but they didn't have the size I thought I would need. I got purple instead. I decided to get an XL because I am an overweight sissy. I haven't tried it on yet because I haven't had any private time. I cant wait to try it on though.

Next I looked for my fitted bra. I had no clue what to get there, there were so many choices. From push ups to strapless I couldn't decide. I didn't no my size I measured around my chest and it was a 42. They had no cute bras though in that size :(. I decided to get a cute bra and hope it would fit. I got a 36B push up bra.



I felt so humiliated buying these bras, but I felt such sissy buying them. I felt so happy obeying my master and  hopefully pleasing him with my purchase. I cant wait to try these on and see if they fit! I cant wait for more assignments from my master. I cant wait to be the sissy he wants me to be!

Learning to think like a woman:)

Thinking like a woman is something every sissy needs to start from the beginning. But how can you think like a woman if your only a sissy? There are a couple of things I'm trying and only time will tell. I think to think like a woman you have to first decide what kind of woman you want to be. For me I want to be a a bimbo sissy. I have to think like a bimbo to become a bimbo. I have started changing what kind of TV I watch. I try to watch more reality TV like Keeping up with the Kardashians or 16 and pregnant. I also am trying to change what kind of news I read and only read the entertainment news. I also have started sitting down to pee and taking longer on my hygiene. I have stopped chewing my nails and letting them grow out. I am starting to notice guys more and the bulges in their pants. I want to keep doing these things and hopefully change my thought patterns of a sissy bimbo!

Bras. A sissies best friend.

      I am not a very good sissy when it comes to bras. I haven't really worn any bras. I don't know if it is because I don't know what size I am or if I am afraid to buy one. I used to wear my moms when I was younger, but now that I have grown up and moved out I haven't really worn any bras since then. 

     There are many different kinds of bras. A few of my favorites are the demi bra, padded bra, training bra or an underwire bra. The demi bra is like a shelf bra but provides less support. It also makes your breasts look bigger. Next is the padded bra. I like the padded bra because it makes my small sissy titties look bigger by adding padding. The training bra is a nice bra for a beginning sissy. It adds that feminine touch that every sissy needs. Last is the underwire bra. The underwire bra provides a sissy support for her breasts and makes them feel like a s sissy. 

      I would like any of these four bras to wear. The training or a sports bra would be best to wear under my clothes. The demi, padded, and underwire would make me feel more and more like a sissy. I like all of these styles of bras the best because they are the most sexy and would make me feel like a sissy.